Being Sick: part-I

Some days you feel you are ready to tackle this harsh world with all your strength and emerge victorious, but on some days you feel that the world is tackling you and you don't have any strength within you to revert back, you feel like breaking-down and letting yourself go emotionally but this too turn difficult as no-one is willing to give you a shoulder to cry on or unleash your trauma. You end up bottling your emotions and unknowingly increasing the "emotional baggage" within yourself. Someday if you don't get anything you want or if things go opposite you, you feel that you aren't worth of achieving things or doubt yourself and your abilities. It can be really hard to pick-up yourself from that situation and be normal again.

It seems like life has no meaning.

Someday you are just sick but still have a long list of things which you suppose, you could have done when you were normal. Many time you are so bored and lonely that you think you have a full-fledged headache which doesn't goes off even after taking huge doses of pain-killers (Hey pain-killers are fatal for our livers! Do avoid them at any cost). On these type of days neither we know why things are going too-awry for us nor do we know why? All we know is anything is bogging us down and letting us not appreciate ourselves and be happy again. Sometimes we want to let past thing go, but they still keeps knocking our door and making us feel bad about it.

When any of the above day occurs to me I describe myself as "being sick" because to me such days means intense headaches accompanied by an urge to sleep all day. Many people term such days as "low-days" too. These low days are a dreaded thing which I want to avoid at all cost but, Alas! it can't be avoided by me because I wake-up feeling that low in the morning that my rest of the day goes awful! On such days its better to let thing go, its better not to think about feeling-low things again and again, its better not to find out the way to handle them, its better just to do something that You (read, YOU!) enjoy. 

Well, at this particular point of time the same thing is happening to me. So naturally, I have got a head-quake (Hey, its a term invented by me! Head-ache+Earthquake= Head-quake. Its a copyrighted term so do ask before using it!!!) and hence, I am in no mood to write any more. But don't feel disappointed, I will complete this post soon....so keep your eyes out for part-II of this post. But do give me some feed-back...